Thanks

Thankyou for the laughs thank you for the love the comfort the kindness. Thankyou for the interest in me and thankyou for noticing me. Thank you for being my friend and I yours. Thanks for the constant phone calls, and invites always making sure I was included. Thankyou for loving me and I in love with you.  Do my last words to you are thank you!

Nostalgia

Remember first grade I do? I got into a private school cause we won the lottery.

Remember second grade? I do that's when you decided to leave our family. 

Remember 4th grade? I do that's the year I had my first crush. 

Remember 7th grade I do that was the year i got made fun of my height none stop. 

Remember 9th grade I do that was the year, I got my first kiss. 

Remember sophomore year? I do that was the year I moved out and broke your heart/ sorry mom. 

Remember the beginning of senior year. You probably don't cause you neglected I was your kid too.

Remember graduation? You will, because that was the time I finished first and you forgot to catch up with me.

Dear heart

It's like almost 12:00 I'm still awake my heart still hurts and my bones still ache my hands still shake. What the heck is wrong with me. I count the sheep in my head but instead I'm counting how many times I think of your name.

          I blame you I blame the muscle that sits on the left side of my chest. Actually people say you sit right in the middle just slightly tilted to the left. No matter where you sit, in my chest or on my sleeve. (Function of the heart: to protect!) you didn't do your job you didn't do it. 

hi my name is...

It's 9:55 at night on monday the night before im suppose to reveal who I am.

do people actually care who I am?

Did people even read my blog?

Did i even care about what I was writing about?

or who was reading it which was a total of 5 people.

Am i scared for people to know or do i just not care?

i say i don't care, but i do. im more afaid of what people think.

im more afraid of what people might say?

or what the five people who actually read my blog thought.

Im not afraid anymore im thankful. thank you 5 people who read my blog!

For you five people who read it whether you liked it or not.

this is me,

short

loud

sassy

brown

chick

named...

Isa Enriquez

a silent girl

The plan didn't work 

We all have two lives

we have a life filled with experiences

and we have a life filled with dead ends.

two lives? like thinking The world is too big to stay in one place and life being is too short to do just one thing.

or thinking that you just get too tired of things because getting your hopes up is too heart breaking.

more or less i think SILENCE is my best option.

people or robots

0001 What I wouldn't give

0002 to be normal

0003 to live in that bubble

0004 reality of the naive

0005 ?

[scoffs] real? you wanna talk about reality?

synthetic emotions in the forms of pills

psychological warfare in the form of advertising

Mind altering chemicals in the form of food 

brainwashing seminars in the form of media

controlled isolated bubbles in the form of social networks

but... you know what is real?

real interaction with one another in the form of friendship

a physical/ emotional need to be drawn to one another in the form of love

a hunger to become better in the form of dedication

knowing unimportant facts in the form of education

a bipolar state of emotion in the form of a HUMAN.

Color with the rainbow not grays and blacks

As a little kid you have all these colors to choose from, yellow red gold pink. And then that all changes as you get older and you have 2 to choose from blacks and grays. 

You know I didn't want anything to change I wanted it all to stay the same. My box was filled with vibrant colors, 

then you decided to leave my mom, and then I lost half of the crayons in that box. So I got over the ones I lost and kept using the ones I had tried to make the best of them. Then my mom married a dick who disliked me so I broke 10 more. I was left with two colors black and gray.

Why? Did you know you can replace your box with a brand new one?